Mythologies
Again my vow of no headlines
succumbs. Again I recoil —
we can never foresee
where despair will stake its claim.
Night thins across the Willamette,
cloud enveloping rough-edged hills.
Metaphor, I tell myself again,
is a way in and a way out.
Yet must empathy, luminous
and opaque, not be the language
of any god worth our love?
The weekend drifts in.
Zucchini bread,
Colombian pour-over lovingly tended.
I fret over the fading aralia. Surrender
to a long breath of the forest nearby.
But there's always
blood beneath our fingernails.
Sudden text from V. in Buffalo. I plummet
into story: our failure
to teach critical thinking,
emotional intelligence,
and then — with basic fucking
humanity like a razor
under my tongue — I'm snared.
Yes: I may just hate
these minds unschooled
in the switchbacks of life
as much as they hate
whoever they fear is coming
to steal their realities. I ache
for their disappearance. Pray
for their enlightenment.
Curse my condescension.
And only now, only
in this scarred silence,
does metaphor relent:
ten black corpses.
Say: pain
Say: helpless
Say: the us we can no longer disavow